disappointed. my only hope left can. maybe it's just best that i didn't see it. i'd live happier. oh well, maybe it's just best without it.

i'm been thinking a lot of things when i'm bathing. i don't know why but only then will i think of things. alot of decisions are made then.

i feel that i can't cope with my studies anymore after the first common test. i mean this is the first test that i really studied okay. at least 50%. never in my life did i studied that hard from the time i was born till now. not even psle. but still, my results are like shit. especially maths, such a disppointment.

and another thing. pillar of supports. do i need one? i don't know la, but there's this someone who motivates me to study. upon seeing that she can't get what she wants, just.. i feel sad for her. she's studying really hard now. oh well.

and i am so pissed off can. won't you just give and take. is it that hard. i really want to okay. you'll never understand la. at least everybody around has someone there when they need it. when i think you were the one, you just do something that changed my mind.